| Noun | 1. | intention - an anticipated outcome that is intended or that guides your planned actions; "his intent was to provide a new translation"; "good intentions are not enough"; "it was created with the conscious aim of answering immediate needs"; "he made no secret of his designs" |
See now, if I had to define intentions, I'd say they were the automatic first natural instinct, that we as humans have inside us. The initial emotion we get when we wanna do something, not thinking about what it is that is stopping us. That internal desire where we let go every "but what if..." in the world and do exactly as we want.
Today, while talking to one of my best friends RAWNS, I learned that we ALWAYS know what we want... even when in doubt. The reason why doubt usually pops up in the picture is because of our existence in the external world. The world where we forget about what we truly want, the world where we compare ourselves and only think about the consequences, the guilt and the fear of our actions. And by all means this is well-needed in some cases (ie. trying to rob a bank or murder someone) but when it comes to doing something that intentionally makes you feel good, a lot of us usually resist in doing so because of our feelings in that judgmental intimidating external world.
I dislike that feeling. This reminds me of when I like something, I show it to someone and they don't like it... Then that starts to make me question myself and I suddenly end up feeling like "hey, what was I thinking, I don't like this either." But the truth is... no, my initial reaction was attraction to whatever it was and I consider anybody mentally strong if that happens, and they stick to that initial intent. The one where they say hey fuck this, I like this whether you think it's dope or not. Our untouched, unclouded, internal desires.
Another example happened today when another one of my homegirls hit me up telling me she wished she could go to NYC to visit some of her family that she missed a lot. Naturally, I told her GO. It's as if all she needed was that push. By starting her sentence with "I wish" makes it seem like its something that isn't in her power to make happen, false. It's her life isn't it? This wish she had was all in her power. She replied telling me there's things that she can't just drop and let go, her friend's birthday and work and going alone. And that's exactly when I realized, these we're nothing but blocks she was placing in front of her wish. Really, she just wants to go, her instincts know she wants to go so why not just go!
I'm a firm believer in people ultimately doing what they want to do in the end, even if it's not the case... I make it the case. And I always believed that if an idea or a thought or a "wish" came to your mind at a precise moment, you are ordered to obey it. OBEY! So clearly this idea came to her as a reason. So I told her this
"There's always a reason why you wanna do something, and usually the initial reason is the right one. But consequences, over-thinking and our mind's obstacles block us... and they win until we snap out of it, take a stand and say FUCK IT! IM'A DO JUST WHAT I INITIALLY INTERNALLY WANT. I won't let the external world make me feel guilty for obeying my internal world's demands. And I will live my life and do what my instincts hint me to do, doubt-free because I always know what I want."
If we listen, the answer is always within us. Always trust that first instinct, our bodies, our insides, our minds they just know what they want. It's only when they are externally executed or told to other people who may not necessarily understand, that it becomes an "I don't know" situation. Next time you feel misguided, just ask yourself what you internally want, if nobody and nothing from the outside world mattered, just you alone.
Last October, I was in a bind at home that kept me misrable and I decided you know what? Im packing my shit and im gonna go see my beautiful friends in Cali and NYC. After a bunch of arguments and "Oh no you didn'ts".... BOOM. Went away for 37 days and had the greatest month of October I've ever had in my whole entire life. Sure, I came back to credit card bills galore and a lot of shit that I left behind, but I'd drop and do it again in a heartbeat. WITHOUT A DOUBT. Imagine if I had let that external devil and everyone else's negativity convince me not to go??? Pshh Yeah right.
So do your instincts justice and obey them, they are in sync with your mind, your soul, your life. And usually, they are the key to making you internally happy.
Oh and my homegirl, yuuup! She's going to NYC and making her "wish" come true, as simple as simplicity could be. And I couldn't be more happier to see another beautiful mind start her sola search. Shout out to the lovely RANYA for inspiring this thought with just a few words! Love Love Love!
OUR INTERNAL WORLDS PREVAIL!!!!!
VIVA LA SOLA!!!
